Hello and Happy day to you!
Every few months I feel like I write one of these posts…
The post where I realize I am slacking (no offense Fallon!), decide to pick myself up by the bootstraps and get my sh*t together.
The post where I decide to start kicking a$$ and taking names.
This post is a little different though.
I have admitted to you, a few times, that I have been struggling lately… A LOT in fact.
After getting injured at the San Diego Rock n’ Roll Half Marathon and then totally feeling like crap at the Napa to Sonoma Wine Country Half Marathon, I had forgotten what I felt like to actually feel strong during a race.
It was pretty scary.
Prior to running N2S, I emailed my coach and told her that I didn’t even know if I COULD run a half marathon.
Obviously, it isn’t possible to lose that much fitness in such a short period of time…
But it was the perfect example of how much in my own head I was.
I was filled with so much doubt.
However, I had an epiphany the night before the San Francisco Half Marathon…
I have been unmotivated and totally unhappy with the way my running has been going…
I haven’t been working towards achieving anything since I smashed my sub 2 goal at the OC Half in May.
Which, coincidentally, was the last time I actually felt good about how I was running.
For the last 3 months, I have been floating.
I know that I need to have goals to keep me in line, and help me stay focused.
Why in the world would I think that I could or would feel successful when I was not actively working to achieve a goal?!?!
That changes now.
My next two goals will be pretty big ones:
- Run a 1:55 Half Marathon
- Run the California International Marathon in 4:10
Both goals are definitely big and scary.
I haven’t run a marathon since 2013 and the fastest half I have run is a 1:57.
So they are definitely going to push me outside of my comfort zone….
But I am ready!
It feels really good to say this out loud.
It feels good to have goals again.
It feels good to have something to work towards.
What is your next BIG goal?