Tomorrow marks the end of living my professional life in my comfort zone.
Over the last 5 years, I have made some pretty amazing changes- both personally and professionally.
I started running in 2008
I moved to San Luis Obispo
I switched career fields (from Mortgage Lending to Human Resources)
I got out of a pretty toxic relationship
I decided to get a Masters Degree
I ran a full marathon and 6 half marathons
I moved into my “Big Kid House”
I finally broke my Half Marathon goal time and ran a sub 2 (finish time 1:57.32)
I started this amazing blog
and now I can proudly say that I am an HR Manager.
Life is pretty amazing when you think about it.
But it can also be really hard.
Moving to SLO was such a tough time for me.
I had a hard time making friends.
Moving to a completely new area was scary.
I used to get lost everywhere I went.
But, looking back on it now, I wouldn’t change that decision for the world.
Changing jobs and changing fields was hard.
I had no clue what I was doing.
I was afraid to make a mistake.
I cried on the way home from work every day for the first week.
But, that change is why I am here… now.
Training for a marathon was a huge challenge.
I started training in July in Bakersfield.. enough said.
I received no guidance from anyone.
Running 20 miles by yourself is pretty lonely.
But, I am a better, stronger runner because of it.
Looking back on my last 30 years…
I know every step I have taken has led me to this moment.
As terrified as I am of making this job change,
I know I have to do it.
I would never be who I am today, if I let my fear control me.
I wouldn’t have accomplished all of these amazing things, if I never tried.
I wouldn’t be me.
So, yes, I am freaking terrified.
My mind races a million miles a minute
and my negative thoughts start creeping in….
What if I can’t do it.
What if I fail.
But, in reality what do those “what ifs” do for me?
So, I have to let those thoughts go.
I can’t let my negative thoughts rule me.
I am stronger than my thoughts.
I am tough.
I don’t give up.
I am strong.
I am a runner, damnit.
If I can run 26.2 miles… which I can,
I can do anything.
This is no different.
Running is a lot like life.
It’s hard, it can be scary but in the end it is ALWAYS worth it.