Running forward, but looking back.


Tomorrow marks the end of living my professional life in my comfort zone.

Over the last 5 years, I have made some pretty amazing changes- both personally and professionally.

I started running in 2008

I moved to San Luis Obispo

I switched career fields (from Mortgage Lending to Human Resources)

I got out of a pretty toxic relationship

I decided to get a Masters Degree

I ran a full marathon and 6 half marathons

I moved into my “Big Kid House”

I finally broke my Half Marathon goal time and ran a sub 2 (finish time 1:57.32)

I started this amazing blog

and now I can proudly say that I am an HR Manager.

Life is pretty amazing when you think about it.

But it can also be really hard.

Moving to SLO was such a tough time for me.

I had a hard time making friends.

Moving to a completely new area was scary.

I used to get lost everywhere I went.

But, looking back on it now, I wouldn’t change that decision for the world.

Changing jobs and changing fields was hard.

I had no clue what I was doing.

I was afraid to make a mistake.

I cried on the way home from work every day for the first week.

But, that change is why I am here… now.

Training for a marathon was a huge challenge.

I started training in July in Bakersfield.. enough said.

I received no guidance from anyone.

Running 20 miles by yourself is pretty lonely.

But, I am a better, stronger runner because of it.

Looking back on my last 30 years…

I know every step I have taken has led me to this moment.

As terrified as I am of making this job change,

I know I have to do it.

I would never be who I am today, if I let my fear control me.

I wouldn’t have accomplished all of these amazing things, if I never tried.

I wouldn’t be me.

So, yes, I am freaking terrified.

My mind races a million miles a minute

and my negative thoughts start creeping in….

What if I can’t do it.

What if I fail.

But, in reality what do those “what ifs” do for me?

Nothing.

So, I have to let those thoughts go.

I can’t let my negative thoughts rule me.

I am stronger than my thoughts.

I am tough.

I don’t give up.

I am strong.

I am a runner, damnit.

If I can run 26.2 miles… which I can,

I can do anything.

This is no different.

Running is a lot like life.

It’s hard, it can be scary but in the end it is ALWAYS worth it.

-RatherBeRunnin’

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19 thoughts on “Running forward, but looking back.

  1. Bite Into Nutrition says:

    Wow, thanks for sharing. I can relate on many levels. Congrats on four job as an HR Mgr. I was I HR and Recruiting for about 14 years and decided to leave it all behind to pursue a dietetics career. It was so hard leaving the comfort of my position and salary but I don’t regret it. I’m training for my 1st half marathon and am so grateful to have a running buddy.

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  2. Stephanie@nowiun.com says:

    Amazing! You’re a rockstar… really. This is a post I can relate to in so many ways. I cried uncontrollably for hours the night before I flew to AZ from MI to live a new life here with my family.
    You are right… if you can run 26.2 miles, you can do ANYTHING! Love it! Rock on, sister!

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  3. cellistwhotris says:

    I’ve made some big life changes (divorce and international moves) and it takes so much courage! It’s always worth it and there’s no looking back. Good for you and keep plodding forward, you’re very inspirational!

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